Today I am leaving behind everything I know, everything that I'm comfortable with. Today I am moving my life 2000 miles out west.
And so, I'm packing. I don't have much. It makes me smile to know that all that I have and own can fit into a couple suitcases. I hate to think that I have to leave some things behind, some pieces to the past that have made me into me. Although, after remembering much of what led to me becoming me, perhaps a good shove forward is what I needed to seal the healing in my heart.
After all, I am a new creation. I am not the same I was.
But then, a part of me is screaming not to go, is questioning why I'm embracing the change, why I need to go. Will it be worth it? Am I strong enough?
No.
But, I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. I will not give in to my flesh... my flesh that has become so weak under the pressures of trying to fit in.
Thank God for my willing spirit. Thank God for His Spirit breathing true life into me. Thank God.
Kat I am sad you are gone :( boo , BUT i am SO proud of you for being so strong and taking this step of faith and going to be a light... way to follow Him even when it doesnt seem to make sense of feel right. I cant wait to see your next blog and hear how your trip went and how your new life is starting out :) praying for you missy!
ReplyDeleteadventure is only for the brave! gooooooo kat!
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