Strange that I've been here a month already. I feel like I just stepped on the plane from Edmonton, anxiety and excitement boiling in the deepest parts of my heart. At the same time, I feel like I've been here much much longer... I have reached a point of a certain kind of contentment and comfortability as the bones of my life here in Mae Sot take on flesh. I feel that I have been given opportunity through Imagine Thailand to carve out a ministry for myself, within the already existing ministry. I feel like my life here is the only one I have. I feel like I belong here.
At times I feel like my life and ministry here are so eclectic, and maybe just a bit outside the lines, though I mostly enjoy this aspect of it.
There are hard days. There are moments I become a little more than curious about my life at home (sometimes bordering on worry). There are trials, and victories, and discouragements, and moments of hope scattered throughout. But in it all I am reminded that I am exactly where I am called to be. Even when I am crying through a disagreement with my Imagine Thailand family, even when I'm sick of teaching English, even when I am lonely and wishing for a good friend to be near... God is faithful, and constant, and so good that I could never doubt His presence in my life or the call He's given me to do "greater things."
"I have reached a point of a certain kind of contentment and comfortability as the bones of my life here in Mae Sot take on flesh."
ReplyDeleteYou, my friend, are a poet. What a way to word it! That exactly describes how I feel here in Yellowknife :)
So glad to hear that you're settled in, getting into the swing of things, and hearing God's whispers in your heart...
Oh, I am so excited for you over there! I wish I was experiencing it with you! Why can't we be in two places at once?!
Your heart and soul are beautiful. Let God continue to shape them!
<3 Much love and prayers
I also wish we could have some time together in one (or both!) of our respective temporary life locations.
ReplyDeleteI dream about heading to the north this summer, but at the same time I'm dreading leaving this side of the world. I'm such a walking contradiction!
Keep the blogs coming - I feel like I'm right there with you. Love you Mel!